Ok back to sizzlingclassique!

More than half a year since I last blogged here. Lots of things changed, lots of things happened. After what I have been through for the past 9 months, the way I see things changed, the way I feel about life changed.

A quick update:
-r/s failed, and then came a third party (if you understand)
-formed new clique
-found true friends that will stay with me forever
-started working
-collected O levels results, enrolled in Ngee Ann Polytechnic's accountancy

Life's good because:
-I have been hanging out with my bestfriends - Jamie and Yuhui and co
-I have friends showing true and genuine concerns, which I think matters to everyone

Life's bad because:
-I still cannot let go of my first love

So I can't conclude life's good nor bad.

Speaking of r/s, been 7 months since the break-up. In between, I had studies and work to keep me occupied. All these while I've been reflecting on myself, on what I could have done better to contribute to the past r/s. There's a list of it but I think no point listing them here. I really want to tell him everything, but my friend urged me to not trigger him anymore, which, is true. He may have move on, and I can't be so selfish to remind him of the past anymore. But seriously speaking, I am no longer the old Huiling anymore. If I have another chance to start all over again, I think I can handle the r/s better. I thought the release of o level results was the last chance to see him. Never thought that I'm still able to meet up with him today, and of course the previous clique. I am lucky, no? I care, I still care for him. But I don't show in front of him, I usually ask around hahaha e.g. "how's he doing" 

I know its stupid and ridiculous for me to bring up the past r/s again. Seriously, it can be quite annoying haha I understand so read if you want or close the windows if you feel digusted. In the eyes of many, teenagers of my age don't know what true love is and I understand that I still have a long way to go. SO, Jiayou!